My Broken Heart is Beating - Chapter One

Submitted: Jun. 17, 2008 @ 3:17 pm by Katelyn Daines

CHAPTER ONE
(April, 1995)

Leah sang quietly to herself as she pulled her kitchen drapes open and looked out at the beautiful day that was just beginning. Then, as if one with her body, her husband came up behind her, wrapped his arms around her waist, and spun her around the kitchen with him. He was laughing gently and was looking at the beautiful woman that had become his wife. Her gentle lips, the bright green eyes that looked up at him with delight, and the thick, long brown hair that swished softly while she danced with him. She was beauty itself, and he loved her more than anything.

They danced for awhile, and then she came and put her head on his shoulder, still dancing in the humble kitchen of newlyweds. She loved him so much and could never imagine her life without him. He was kind and gentle, so intelligent, spiritual, and all of the other things she had prayed about when she was a little girl to have in a husband one day. He was her life, and she loved him for it.

Jacob dipped her and then brought her up for a kiss. She kissed him, and she could feel his strong arms envelop her and hold her tight. She put her arms around him, too, never wanting to let go, and put feeling into her kiss; the feeling of the deepest love. Then they looked into each other’s eyes, green to gray, and they kissed each other again. This time with more and passion and with more love than ever before. They loved each other more than life itself.

“Jacob,” Leah whispered softly. She kissed him delicately. “Jacob,” she whispered again. This time he kissed her. His gentleness on his kiss made her whole boy tingle. He pulled her chest towards him and kissed her with more ferocity. He couldn’t get enough of those gentle lips that belonged to someone he loved so much more than life. She kissed him back with as much aggression as he had kissed her. And then they stopped. The couple just held each other now. Not ever wanting to leave this moment in which they had so much joy. If life is like this, they thought, then what must heaven be?

“Jacob!” Leah called from the loft upstairs. “Jacob, have you seen this?” Jacob hurried up the stairs and walked over to the desk at which his wife was sitting. The computer was on, and Leah was looking at an email they had just received. He put his arm around her, sat down next to her, and pulled her close. He read the email.

“Jacob, did you apply for a job like that?” Leah wanted to know after he was done, surprise and confusion emitting from her face.

“I had no idea.” He said looking straight into her eyes, so that she would know he was telling her the truth. “Of course, I have been applying into political related jobs, but never something as big as that. I wouldn’t have even thought to apply to something like that. I didn’t know I was qualified.”

Jacob reread the email. The job with the government seemed almost too good to be true. He would be on of the foremost secret service people within the top political stand. He would be traveling to different places to do work with the U.S. government, and he would need to be starting in one month.

Jacob looked at Leah. She was still surprised, but she seemed to be a little less confused than before. “What do you think?” he asked her, hoping that the right answer would come out of those beautiful lips.

“I’m okay with it, Jacob,” she said slowly. “I am just a little worried about you traveling so much, and with the government. Who knows how many people would want to kill you, and why is it suddenly now that they want you to join them? We have just gotten married, and now the government wants to take you away from me.” She put her head on his shoulder, and she cried softly.

Jacob knew it wasn’t personal. Anytime Leah was feeling stressed or pressured she let her feelings out by crying. But he also knew that this wasn’t just the normal stressing. This wasn’t a pricey bill that they had to pay soon. This was going into the government in the middle of a war, and Jacob cried too. He didn’t want o leave his wife, the beautiful woman he came home to every night. But the calling of adventure, of the prospects of this new job where strong: the money, the traveling, and the perfect schedule. This was all his, and both he and his wife knew that he should take it.

“I’m sorry, Jacob,” she said, looking up, and wiping her tears away from her eyes. She looked at his face, and laughed when she saw that he was also crying. “My, we’re a happy couple,” she exclaimed, wiping the tears off his cheeks as well. “I think you should take the job, honey.” She looked at the email. “This would be right for us, and I know you want it.” She kissed him before she clicked to reply. She typed quickly the agreement, and she printed out the contract they would need to mail. She got a pen from her desk and gave it to Jacob. “Here you go.”

“Jacob took the pen from her, kissed her again, and then signed his name in the correct place after reading the contract. Leah took the contract from him, put it in an envelope, stamped it, and then looked at Jacob. “There,” she said sighing. “It’s done.”

“Not yet,” Jacob said. And he went downstairs, out the front door, and put the envelope in the mail. He came back to his wife, and she was right where he left her. He looked into her eyes, and then they both started crying again.

“I love you, Leah,” he whispered into her hair, holding her tight against him.

“And I love you, Jacob,” she whispered into his shoulder. She could feel his sobs rack his body. “And I will never stop loving you.”

The two young lovers decided that they would try to forget the new job, for the month that they had, and try to go on with their normal life. They still loved each other as much, if not more than before, but always there seemed to be fear or sadness in the other one’s eyes. They could never the same again, as long as they had this job.

Jacob knew that Leah was just trying to let it go, to realize the pros in taking this new job. He didn’t personally mind too much the job itself, but what it was doing to Leah and to their relationship wasn’t right. They were newlyweds, and there shouldn’t be this much worry and sorrow in a marriage that had just begun.

Leah was just frightened of the prospect of not being with her husband. She knew that any type of government business was dangerous, especially if you were with the top government. She was scared of losing the one thing that she truly loved more than anything. She loved Jacob more than she knew how to love anyone else, and if he was taken away from her she couldn’t live with herself. She couldn’t live knowing that it was she who made the decision to accept the job, it was she who could have said something to change Jacob’s mind. But what was done was done. The contract was signed and it wouldn’t expire in at least a year. Their love for each other would have to overcome this obstacle and continue to grow as danger and fear seeped in around them.